I have had my battles with depression. Seasonal Affective Disorder? Yeah, I know all about that.
I tried a number of times to get my health insurance company to pay for a February trip to the Caribbean, but I found out they are just not nearly as committed to prevention as they claim to be. Can't they see a savings from not having to reimburse all those antidepressants? Short-sightedness...that's what is wrong with this country's health care system.
My seasonal blips seem to be more about a period of change. I get anxious when I feel that summer is going to give way to fall. Then I adjust to fall but get anxious again when it is turning dark and wintry. Of course I get the most down when it is time for winter to change to spring and it just isn't happening in the cycle of Vermont seasons. It's the lack of change for the better that gets to me.
This year has had my head spinning. We made three trips to Florida. We came home in March to a fairly mild spring that turned into a long rainy period through May. We went to Venice in June and enjoyed a week of heat and sunshine. We came back to a cooler Vermont summer, then went back to Florida for a few weeks of more heat and sunshine. Now back in Vermont, we have seen little sun at all and the dark time is here. It looks like the sun has moved South, although, I am sure it is more accurate to say that our part of the world has tilted on its axis away from the sun.
Two weeks ago we were walking on the beach and taking dips in the Gulf of Mexico. This week we are expecting the first snow of the season. I haven't had time to feel depressed and anxious so much as confused. Put away the bathing suit and pull out the winter jacket and wooly hats and scarves.
Hang on. In a couple of weeks we will be throwing the resetting of clocks into the mix. I'll certainly "fall back" into temporal confusion for a week after that...and start packing my bags again.