I was pleased to be staying current with Last Tango in Halifax but I now am seriously considering deferring that til another time. August is prime sink into a depression time for me and, let me tell you, British dramas don't have anything to offer in the way of lightening the mood.
This August marks the second anniversary of Mike's passing, but August has always been a trigger so it is not just that. At least I know it will pass and that I should exercise extra vigilance around machinery and such. I get extremely accident prone when I am depressed.
I have been reading The Awakened Introvert: Practical Mindfulness Skills to Help You Maximize Your Strengths & Thrive in a Loud & Crazy World by Arnie Kozak.
It isn't that this book is filled with startling new revelations for me, but it certainly is filled with needed reminders of what I need to be practicing, especially now. I think I will need to read this every August for the rest of my life.
I have been dithering about my house situation. I really need less house and yard to take care of, but I could not seem to make a strong move in that direction even after talking to the real estate people. My son, the original poster child for indecision, even said I need to kick him out and move on. That woke me up a little, but the big thing was stripping the wallpaper. It is done now. I will have to find a painter still, but taking things off the wall really got me thinking--does this spark joy? Do I want to take this to a new, smaller place?
I will be taking some trips to Habitat for Humanity Restore with donations--feeling some space open up around me as I go. I am (to some) disturbingly unsentimental about stuff. I really do work on the practical/use it or sparks joy principles.
Well now I have two rooms in kind of a mess--the living/dining room and the office where I have stored stuff from the living room.
I am off to clear some space.