Sunday, January 22, 2012
I have not been knitting too much lately. I only have patience for small, quickly finished projects like this towel. It still needs blocking, this is fresh off the needles. I think I should immediately start another since it took me so long to finally get into the rhythm of the pattern.
I knit a lot of hats in the round. That involves pretty mindless knit stitch and some counting. I usually start from the top and work down. That's not how most of the instruction I have say to do it, but I find it easier for some reason. I have convinced myself I don't have to worry about gauge so much that way. Also in a hat, the occasional extra stitch doesn't become a big worry. Knitting along almost becomes a meditative state.
Not so with a fussy pattern. I kept ending a row with an extra stitch or a missing stitch. Then I would have to undo and try again. That kind of knitting has the opposite effect of a meditative state. My muscles tense, my blood pressure spikes, my mind is no longer empty but filled with negative thoughts about knitting ability and my very worth as a human being. I work myself right into a spiritual crisis.
But if nothing else, I can be persistent. Eventually the pattern gets in my head--or maybe into my fingers--and I get a feeling of having completed a task and of having made something with my own hands.
These little towels are decorative and they make a nice hostess gift. They may have some aggravation factor, but they knit up quickly. I'll make some more. I have convinced myself that I only need one lace shawl in this lifetime.